TO THE ONE THAT GOT AWAY!

Some time ago I poured out my feelings

And said what I felt

As time went by I got cold feet

Later became aloof

And disappeared for a while.

I was scared of you

Scared of the depth of what I felt

Scared of commitment

Scared of pain and hurt

And most of all

I was scared of letting myself go.

I took time away to deal with it

Deal with my feelings

Deal with my pain

Deal with my obsession

Deal with my heart

Deal with my demons.

I know I hurt you

I know I was cold

The silence said it all

Silence has a way of being loud

It wasn’t you, it was me

I know that line is a cliché.

If I had let you in would you have understood?

I don’t do what if’s

But you’re the exception

Chances of you reading this are slim

But I would love to have one last talk with you

Lord knows how much I miss you

Texting you the other day and you replying back

Brought back all the unresolved emotions

I miss that smile

I miss the hearty laugh

And most of all I miss that *wink*

As much as I hate to admit it

A part of my heart loves you.

© cizoe, 2016

A cizoepoetry collection.