She slowly sits down
And watches you across the table
She watches your mouth open and shut
All she hears is the racing of her heart.
You talk and make her feel comfortable
She feels that she can tell you anything
Against her better judgment, she lets you in
Tells you her inner secrets
Tells you her inner fears
You sit and listen to her
She pours it all out
She goes further and opens that inner door
It contains her insecurities and despairs
Her past hurts and pains
She’s unsure but you are quick to reassure her.
Her loads lightens and she bears it all out
She feels like a log has been lifted
And her pain is out
She can finally heal
And she talks and talks and talks and talks
Your hands offer reassurance
And your hugs offer security
She knows she has found a good place.
Later she starts to notice something is out of place
The phone goes unanswered
Her messages are not replied
Promises are made
And just as easily broken
One day she sees you
And breaks into a smile
She starts to approach you
But you walk away
She thinks maybe you didn’t see her.
She calls you
Sees you pick up your phone
Switch off the screen
And put it down
All the blood drains from her face
As it dawns on her
This is another day in paradise.
She will get through the shame
She will pull through the despair
She can manage the hurt
But she won’t forget the disappointment and the pain of being honest.
A cizoepoetry collection