In my mind I want to deny
In my heart I feel content
I want to be far away
Yet not too far away
I want you near
Yet when the words come out
I push you away.
I have but one desire
My heart knows you will fulfill it
In my heart of hearts
I know
But I am scared to admit
And accept defeat
So I keep on fighting
The truth is there
Smile I do
Weight I gain
I am content
But the struggle is within
It is like a raging battle
That never stops
I hope one day
I will look back
Not regret
The decisions I have made.
©thelma migue, 2010
From the cizoepoetry collection
...what informs this one Thelma?
ReplyDeleteJohn this one was and is brought on by a twist of events that i have no control yet can be controlled.
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